breaking down

well, today i broke down. i had my emotions all bottled up and i had to let them out so i just broke down and cried. i needed it. i feel so much better now! things are going ok. i love my job! i am going to my work christmas party tomorrow and i might have a date to it! his name is Parker and he is GREAT!

December 1st

thats when my next court date is... i'm going to get probation. its the best thing they can give me so i'm taking it. the only catch is that i have to register as a sex offender and it will be on my record for about 10 months. its cool tho. the best they can come up with yea i'll take it!

so, Jade and i are done for good i guess. its hard yes, but i just need to turn to my Father in Heaven again. i havent spoken to Him in a while and i think its time i have a long repenting conversation with Him. i really need it. i have felt pretty depressed all day but i have managed to pull thru it. i love you all and i shall pray for u! i ask for your prayers in this time of heart ache. love you guys!!!

life...

Well i found out that my resolution date is set for November 10th at 9am. wish me luck! i'm so scared! it takes everything i have to not cry everytime i think about it. but other than that things are going great, even though i got fired from the DI because of my charges... i'm trying to get a new job tho since i have some experience. i also want to get back into school but thats a process that hasnt started yet. Jade and i are doing really well and have been together for four months and two weeks now. that makes him my longest relationship so far! i am so happy and he keeps me strong and up lifted. oh my court will be at the St. George court house. if u want more info u can text or call me at 435 669 4774. love you and miss you all!

Jail Break

So, i finally get jade back and then on Wednesday he gets arrested on a warrant. the warrant was for not showing up to court. this court stuff has been going on for two years and its for a false accusation. i miss him so much. i have no idea when i will see him again. i have put in for visits, but thing is, his sister, lindsey told me that he was just using me for a place to live. but when jade gets out i am going to tell him that he has to start helping around the house, he can only sleep till 10 unless its a weekend, and he has GOT to look for a job or he is kicked out. its harsh but its what i have to do. i just hope lindsey is wrong. i love jade. i know i do. because i get sick when i think of never seeing him again. i cant get the scene of him being arrested out of my head and i feel like it is driving me crazy. i cant concentrate on ANYTHING! i have tried everything from reading the scriptures to hanging out with my friends and all i can think about is jade being arrested. its like my mind is a broken record repeating it over and over. I need some suggestions on what i can do. i have prayed and prayed and prayed for him since he was arrested. i have also prayed for the scene to be taken from my mind but it hasnt been. so if i can get some help on what to do that would be awesome. thanks guys. other than all that i am doing pretty well. i have a Pre-Trial on the 29th of this month then things will be set in motion. the trial then sentencing. i really hope i can get off with something like probation or counseling or maybe even both. i am really mad though because i should be getting off with nothing because the police officer didnt read me my rights and that is a mandatory thing. i told my attourney an he said it didnt matter but IT DOES!!!! so if i dont get off i will be soooooooooooo mad!!!!!! but yeah wish me luck!!!! i will keep u updated on what goes on with Jade and I! love you all!!!!!!

well things are going ok. my fiance, Jade, and i are taking a break right now... going to see if it will help with our arguements. the wedding is still set for March 17th 2012

LOTS HAPPENING!!

so, my life has been hecka crazy!!!! i went to vegas with my boyfriend who proposed to me on the corner of Koval and Flamingo, got stranded there, then came home 4 days ago. now i am going to be going with my soon to be mother in law to pick him up from St. George. he treats me like a princess! i love him so much!!!! i will keep you guys posted on when and where the wedding will be!!!! LOVE YOU GUYS

LOTS HAPPENING!!

so, my life has been hecka crazy!!!! i went to vegas with my boyfriend who proposed to me on the corner of Koval and Flamingo, got stranded there, then came home 4 days ago. now i am going to be going with my soon to be mother in law to pick him up from St. George. he treats me like a princess! i love him so much!!!! i will keep you guys posted on when and where the wedding will be!!!! LOVE YOU GUYS

Visiting

so, I AM VISITING MY AUNT UP NORTH!!!! I AM CURRENTLY IN FOXBOROW!!!!!!!

getting a job

I'M GONNA GET A JOB WAHOOOOOO

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HAVING AN AMAZING TIME WITH MY FAMILY!!!! WAAHOO

my mother

so i am in La Verkin down by St. George with my mom Heidi and my two sisters. they are AMAZING!!!!!! i am so happy! i'm gonna live down here with them. get back into school and get my license and everything!!! God has been so kind to me lately. He has given me my family back. He is truely amazing

Comin home

I'm coming home tomorrow!! My real dad is gonna come and pick me up I'm Boise!!!!!

Friday

So I might be comin home on Friday!! can't wait to see everyone!!!!!!

My adventure

So not all of you know this but I moved to Hailey Idaho about 3 weeks ago. I moved there with a guy names Seth Moldenhauer. We were dating at the time. Seth was such a great guy. He had grown up in hailey and wanted to take me with him when he moved back. So I went. The day we got here he became a completely different guy. back in utah he would make sure to see me every day and he would treat me with the utmost respect. Here in Idaho he changed. It was like I didn't even know him any more. I fell out of love and we broke up. I live now with an awesome girl named caitlin who is also 18. We are really good friends now. She went through what I'm going through but at an earlier age and with more trials. She told me that I should go back home and finish out my school year and maybe even get a job. I'm taking her advise. I'm coming home. Not sure when but soon. I have to get things situated first. I got screwed over by my ex but I am going to make it right and I'll have help and support along the way.

Relying on Prayer

I think that prayer plays a BIG part in EVERYONES life. whither you know it or not, you'll always have prayer with you.

Rocken' a Fedora

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I LOVE LIFE!!!!! TEE HEE

BEST NIGHT EVER

So, Last night was Junior Prom and it was A BLAST!!!! The date was super fun! i went with two other groups! we went to Hollywood Connections where we did Lazer Tag and a bunch of arcade games. My date bought me ice cream and i got super hyper! then they dropped me off and i got ready! then they picked me up later and we went to dinner at Patricks house for dinner. his brother and sister in law made us dinner! i had cheese cake and got hyper again! then we went to the dance which was at the U of U Ballroom! it was super uber fun!!!!!!

Junior Prom

I get to go to my first dance! I'm going with a great guy named Quaid Stephens! he's such a sweet heart! we're also dating so yeah! we are going with one other couple!!!! it's gonna be super fun!!!!!